For the second time around, I will say that I'm starting to love Facebook. It's a lot more fun there than in Friendster, (well, for me huh?!). Facebook has more depth (in every sense of the word) and is more classy compared to friendster. Friendster's a lil boring for me now and for the second time around also, I'm considering cancelling my friendster account and stick with facebook for good. But I'm having a second thought though for two reasons. One, most of my friends are Asians and it seems that facebook isn't so popular with Asians (i think). Most of my friends are still using friendster. And two, my friendster account has zumkindofa sentimental value to me. I created that account a couple of months after deleting the first account i made in 2004. So my dear friendsters, no worries coz I'm keeping my account.

I was supposed to read "Message in a Bottle" by Nicholas Sparks. But last night, after reading a few pages of it, i put it down but not because it isn't a great book. Nicholas Sparks is a great author and so his books. It's just that I realized that I am not up for fiction and love stories right now. I dunno, but after reading "Eat Pray Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert, I started to crave for inspirational novels. The kind that can bring me to a meditative state. Even in music, I noticed that I don't enjoy loud and head-banging sounds now. I don't care if the song is a thousand years old, as long as it's mellow, soothing and can put me to sleep, I'll listen to it. So goodbye to Linkin Park, limp Bizkit, The Calling and other punk and rock bands I love so dearly. Coldplay will remain as my all time favorite though, because their music's kinda slow too. I really don't know what caused this petty change in my musical and reading preferences. My friend Luis said that it's an indication that I'm gettin' old. Haha! May be I am gettin' old and I can't get away with that fact. But as long as I don't look my age, I wouldn't mind.

I love these edited pics. Hahaha! Courtesy of Marj. I'm amazed because I don't know how to do this stuff. I mean the editing and all. I'm really bad at it.

And oh... I'm up to doing something... a really brave move. Hayyyz. Please help me God.

Here's another entry posted from stolen time. OMFG, here comes a truckload of emo-ness.

T: So how have you been?
M: Fine.
T: But you are alone. Aren't you lonely?
M: Frighteningly lonely.
T: What do you mean? "Frighteningly lonely?"
M: It's like when we were younger, we were so lonely because we didn't have a lot of friends. And now that we are grown up, loneliness seems, just so much worse.
T: Why is it so bad for you?
M: I don't know how to explain it.

M: So I have one question. If we can love someone so much, how will we able to handle it the day when we are separated? And, if being separated is a part of life, is it possible that we can love someone and never be afraid of losing them? That's my loneliness.

I have so many things to do right now, pero I just have to sneak this in. I'm sure a lot of you know that the Olympics in China is upon us (it even had its opening ceremonies on my friggin' birthday. haha). And I just read this article that an American athlete - the swimmer, Michael Phelps has won 8 gold medals in China - the first olympian to do so in a single olympics!

Overall, he has won 16 Olympic medals all in all: six golds and two bronze at Athens (2004), and eight golds in the 2008 Summer Olympics in Beijing. He won the gold medal in the following categories:

1. 200 m Freestyle
2. 100 m Butterfly
3. 200 m Butterfly
4. 200 m Individual Medley
5. 400 m Individual Medley
6. 4 x 100 m Freestyle Relay
7. 4 x 200 m Freestyle Relay
8. 4 X 100 m Medley Relay

And take note, 7 out of these eight are current World Records, with the other one being an Olympic Record. Can you say, CAREER!?

And take note, he is said to have earned an estimated $5 million per year on endorsements, plus because he won eight gold medals in the 2008 Olympic Gold Medals, Speedo gave him a $1 million bonus! San ka pa!? And finally, did you know that he eats 12,000 kcals each day? That's about five times more than the average adult male. But then he burns the calories with his training and all that.

Without a doubt, this is definitely a glory moment - adding to the pile of gold medals the United States has.

On a completely related note, there's this archipelago in south east asia that has yet to win a gold medal. Go Team Philippines! Hopefully, we win our first gold medal soon! (Although sa contest na ito, wala nang text votes at wala na ding Ms. Photogenic. haha)

That's it! Ciao!

"One thing I learned from my father's courtship of Lily is the importance of perseverance. That in the face of true love you don't just give up, even if the object of your affection is begging you to. One thing I learned from Lily is the importance of forgiveness. She gave my father the gift of a second chance and, in kind, I watched him become someone actually worthy of that gift. And one day I hope I'll be lucky enough to find someone who will do the same for me. To the happy couple."

-Words of Chuck Bass of Gossip Girl-

Finally, I finished reading the book "Eat Pray Love". It's beautiful, very beautiful! I was inspired all the way to my bones. Next in line is "Message in a Bottle" by Nicholas Sparks.

I love the fact that I'm really back to reading lately. Yehey! Reading gives me a sense of relief from all the stress I get in this overspeeding world of mine. It gives me a chance to slow down and beleive it or not, while I was reading "Eat Pray Love", i felt like I'm doing some sort of meditation. I felt like I'm alone in a temple, peacefully sitting on the floor, my eyes wide shut as I hum a chant that I can't understand but gives me an inner peace.

I love it!

I'm living under water. Everything seems slow and far away. I know there's a world up there, a sunlit quick world where time runs like dry sand through an hourglass, but down here, where I am, air and sound and time and feeling are thick and dense.

I wish I could see myself in the future. I wish I could talk to her right now, ask her what she misses about herself in my present now.  Would she miss fending for herself, even if she really didn't make that much at work? Would she miss doing tasks in a monotonous day job? Would she miss the bleakness of the future, or has she gotten used to it by then?

I hope not to recognize her straight away. I hope she has managed to look fitter by then-- I'd be dying to know how she did it! I hope she has grown her hair beautifully. I hope she isn't dependent on food anymore in order to feel good, in order to escape stress. I hope she's less of a perfectionist than how I am now.

Surprisingly, I'm also hoping, envisioning, to see her gushing with a date on a lovely Friday evening. I haven't had butterflies in my stomach for the longest time.

He said something interesting: he said that he thinks there is only free will when you are in time, in the present. He says in the past we can only do what we did, and we can only be there if we were there.

But I cannot dictate my future, as much as I want to. It may be a scarier place, but who knows really? All I know is I can only stay wherever here and now is, while every second vanishes away to that bucket we all call the past.

I don't want to look back and regret that I did nothing... while I still had my parents living in good shape, while I still had the power to run on the treadmill, while I still had the choice to splurge my money only for myself, and while I still had my youth to enjoy.

Here and now. That's where I need to be.

* Quotes from the novel The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger

That Day

Yenny : Eh! Qing! You know ah. Lee Chong Wei got into the semi-finals!

Qingx : Oh. The girlfriend lost teruk right. The mew something.

Yenny : Ya la

Qingx : You think he'll win or not?

Yenny : I doubt so la. Aiyor. Malaysia very "si" (shit) wan lah.

Qingx : Oh. (nods head in indifference)

Today

JunNe : OMG!! LEE CHONG WEI WON!!!

Now

Should've bet my ass with Yenny. Sigh.

Something to make you laugh.

Few months back

Yenny : JunNe ah! You're so lucky.

(JunNe heard : JunNe ah! You're so ugly)

JunNe in shock : HAR? *frowns

Yenny : Ya lah! Your mother still let you go out

(JunNe in utter shock)

JunNe : Qingx, what did she just say?

:D 

my orbit of friends are deaf and they rawk.